The first time I saw you I had a strange feeling inside, something magical came over me and I needed to see you again. I did, and the same feeling came back, but more intense. I wanted to get to know you and we eventually started to talk.

We became close and we started to see each other in secret. You was seeing someone else, you still are. We had arguements about it but we got through all that. I know I said some bad things to you but it was through frustration of not being with you and the thought of you being with someone else.

Remember when we talked about fate, I still think we were thrown together. We have quite a lot of years between us but that did'nt matter. We have a lot of love for each other, we care for each other and everything feels right, it just happened at the wrong time but it's all there.

I don't know if you will ever be free to be with me, and this does'nt have to be a secret any longer, but I wish for that more than anything and I know you love me like you say you do because after all thats been said and done we still have a chance to be together.

I live in hope that everything will work out thats why I wait for the day you say it's over for good with your situation as it is. I often think about whats happened and the way things have turned out but I also think of our secret meetings and how much I love you and how much I love being with you.

I know I don't always show how I feel when you've broke up and gone back but i've really hurt inside and it's after you've gone back that you tell me so it would be too late for me to say anything. It's been hard at those time's and i've thought about being without you but that would'nt take away the pain and like you said, seeing you any time is better than not at all.

I'll close by saying I really love you and miss our time together but I hope one day we can sit together and remember how we once was, and say, it was worth the wait. Love you Helly John xxxxxxx