By Ashlee

Your so beautiful is what I've heard all my life
When people look at me, model is what comes to mind.
So hear i am finally where they said i should be,
wrapped tight in vanity.

But if i finally live the "good life" why am i on this site?
night after night
Everyone get pissed if i don't go to some party
But i can never pull myself from the computer screen

I listen to y'all say how ur hurt
and in return I'm wrapped in my own memories.
watching the pain swell deep in me
only to plaster on a smile for all to see.

wrapped tight in vanity, i cover whats inside.
scars hide behind makeup, behind lies
don't get me wrong, i love my job
wouldn't give it up for the world

I guess I'm just tired of not being treated like a person
I'm only a sophomore in high school
but the only thing everyone waits for is me to be the next "prom queen"

But here i am night after night wishing
i could tell the photographer to f2ck off.
I know what ur thinking ...
rich girl doesn't have any problems from what i hear

But i assure u i do
raped at an early age, watcha gonna do?
keep it inside
and turn sad eyes to the camera..the puppy dog look is a turn on.

Your saying - so what its probably a lie.
again i assure i can't cover the scars inside as much as i try
A brother that used to hit me when he was high
try that on for size

vanity wrapped tight around me i can't tell what has happened to me
I have to keep it inside less reporters find out.
as "beautiful" as i may be
like everyone else anger hovers withing me.

Vanity wrapped tight around me
I'm sick of living the perfect life
I wish i could rip my hair out
and for once scream out loud.

Think what u want, i assure u it's all true,
I live the perfect life,
I'm what everyone wants me to be.
But for once..here i scream...

F2ck America! I'm no different
I'm a person just like you
scars i try to hide always seem to show true.
Just because I'm what u want me to be, doesn't mean I'm a Barbie...i really do breathe, i really have feelings.

Submitted By HappyLuv

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