A few days ago I tried a new spam blocker and it really did a good job. Instead of over 200 emails a day, I've been getting about 20. You would think I would be more than happy, but instead it's made me realize I'm an email addict. I hate getting so few emails, even though the majority was junk.

To make matters worse, I'm also an information junkie, the worst possible combination. I keep thinking that one of those deleted emails might have been something that I really should know about. I've started to check the discarded emails just in case.

Lately, I have to force myself not to check for new mail every few minutes. Instead of saying goodnight to my husband in the other room, I send him an email. The thought of going away and not being online for a day or two is almost too much for me to imagine. Even emails calling me by another name have to be read. After all, maybe someone really meant to type Carol, but somehow it came out George. You never know unless you read it, now do you?

Does it matter to me that most of the email I get is advertising or forwards of a joke that has been passed on way too often? Don't I realize that the chain letter that promises wealth and happiness if I send it on to ten people is really nothing more than a waste of my time? Don't I know that my dishes are piled in the sink and the dust is gathering around my feet? Can I not see that my clock says one a.m. and I need to get up at six?

After all, I am a grown woman and this computer is simply a machine. If I turn it off, I will not cease to be an interesting person. But then again maybe………………..

I need help!!